Listening to your cracked laugh
Over that long distance telephone line
I knew how cruel happiness could be
When a loved one was not near.
We buried our tears in each others smile
Trying to shatter the miles between us.
Midnight phone calls became lifelines
Our hushed tones carried by the wind
Flying across the night sky
Treasured in the stars.
What ripped my heart more
Were your letters
Bringing back your scent
A sense of you.
Your words scrawled on a bluish paper
So much, yet so less.
Reading those letters were an effort
With overflowing emotions
The words along every crease
Unveiling folded memories.
The nights were never easy though
Fear and anxiety looming overhead
With insecurities so close by
The dark clouds ready to rain any minute.
Yet, when the phone rang again
Why did my heart jump the slightest bit?
Why did all those fears fade?
Where did my questions vanish?
What did we hold on to?
Hope, may be, for the dark days to pass.
I often drew you in my dreams
Closing my eyes
Feeling you just here, near me
Your smell filling my mind.
The dreams were inviting
While soaring the hidden ache.
But honey, the good days are not far away!
When you come back to rest by my side
My head nestled on your shoulder
Your hand twirled around mine
Let’s bury all of those worries
And dance to the rhythm of our hearts!
P.S: The inspiration for this poem is from the book ‘Americanah’ by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie. The challenges faced by students migrating from Nigeria to UK or the US are heart-wrenching. The clash of their dreams and reality, staying oceans apart from their loved ones, and their harrowing experiences could not have been expressed better. I had to stop and write to get the sadness out of my heart. I am just halfway through the book yet love it already!